Feelings of restlessness have not evaded me. A stirring so deep my heart aches for its true purpose. Yet I have no idea what that is. Since August, I have wondered what the next step is, what the next chapter looks like, what the destination is going to be. All I know is It has to be more than this. More than the cultural norm narrative of “you should be happy” that plagues us all.
In the grand scheme of life – I posses it all and I understand this realization. I have a successful business, a loving and supportive husband, two brilliant daughters, a team that cares, a life full of travels and a want for nothing.
Or so I am told.
When the volume of the noise is reduced, a loud cry emerges from the depths below. I hear the cry and more often than not, I adjust the volume up again to drown out the discomfort. Why? Because it is more comfortable to autopilot than it is to face the reality of what is or in this case, what is not.
I don’t know what I am doing. I have no idea what I am aiming for other than something more than whatever THIS is. I have sought out help, quickly realizing this avenue isn’t the right fit. Instead of shaming myself or staying longer than I should, I will permit myself to release with loving detachment and seek a new course of travel.
If there is NOTHING else I have learned about life it’s this:
Life is about the journey. Not the destination. Trust your intuition. Don’t second guess yourself. Accept your truth and stop allowing what others say influence your ultimate decision.
Trust. You.
🎧Song: Dig Down Deep – Maggie Koerner
